A-Bomb was one of my first experiences with I-Doser. I had experimented with the service years ago to help treat my agoraphobia and social anxiety (which is so bad that I stayed shut in my house for the majority of my time), but never got any real results. After seeing an ad for another similar iDoser site (which looked pretty lame and tacky), I decided to give iDoser another go. I looked at the 3 free doses that they gave me with the software application, all of which looked to be pretty lame. So, after looking over the forums, I decided that A-Bomb was the way to go as a beginner. I made the purchase and decided to queue it on the software.
About 10-15 minutes into the dose, I give up. After focusing on the waves for so long and only feeling a slight tingling in my extremities (an occurrence I attribute to placebo), I decided to go another route. As a recovering addict, Cocaine seemed to fit my personality quite well, so I decided that, since it was on sale in the I-doser store, to go ahead and pick it up. I queued Cocaine, laid in bed, covered my eyes (It was midday; I had the day off today) and focused on the beats.
I enjoyed this beat quite well, the frequencies were easy to visualize and I even got some minor CEVs (Primary colors morphing together on an eyelid-black canvas). As I started to get entranced into the visuals, my memory starts to get a little cloudy. The next thing I remember from the dose was being in a hospital. I was the patient, and I was hooked up to all of these machines. Because I couldn't remember falling asleep, the entire situation seemed very real (Originally wrote "too real", but I didn't want to imply that I ever felt "trapped"). I started unplugging tubes and wires from my body frantically, which set all of the machines audio to baseline (RETROSPECT: I believe the this was a high pitched wave coming through my headphones, not sure.). All the sudden, the sounds stopped. The hospital was dead silent.
I began to move about my surroundings while noticing things were shaking very slowly. It turns out that I was moving faster than my environment. I look out of the window of the hospital to see the biggest wasteland I've ever seen: A desert like one you'd find in rural Nevada. A strong rush of euphoria hit me (One that I akin to cocaine), and I started seeing an explosion in the distance flicker in and out of my vision (Like a reel-to-reel film camera with every other frame missing).
It occurred to me. The world was ending. But instead of the fear that I had when I first considered taking the dose initially, I felt a relief. As the wave of debris caused by the explosion was slowly reaching my location, I had a seemingly infinite amount of time to think about my parents, my siblings, my spouse and all of the people who I love. I was at peace with the world ending. I closed my eyes as the heat of the explosion reached my body, specifically my face.
Then I opened my eyes. I was standing in the desert with the people who I had seen before the explosion. My spouse walked up to me and said, "See, its not the end of the world. Stop acting like it is."
At this point I awoke, drenched in a cold sweat, in my bed, safe and sound at home. I threw the headphones off my head and jumped off of the bed. I stared at my room, making sure that I was experiencing true reality and taking a moment to collect myself. I noticed that there was noise emanating from my headphones (cheap over the ear noise canceling... definitely not quality). The sound was the next beat, Cocaine. I had not realized that I had to re-order the queue on the software application to start my cocaine dose. While thinking I was administering Cocaine, I had just administered A-Bomb. About 12 hours after the dose, I think this might have been the best mistake I've ever made.
I was skeptical at first to the idoser claims. I had tried using doses on youtube and other locations, and realized that the importance of the dose is the quality, something you can only get if you download the real mp3 from the dose store (NOTE: I'm not affiliated with iDoser, just a believer in paying for such an awe inspiring experience.) To those who haven't tried this product, I urge you to download the application and register to the forums. This allows for you to download 6 virtual doses for free. While these doses are milder, they are free, and you get what you pay for. I would also urge new dosers to put down the $2-4 for a dose labeled at least "Very Strong". (iDoser now accepts PayPal, which is awesome for those of us with privacy concerns)
For the applicability of the A-Bomb dose, I have to admit that I was scared before administration, and I was a bit drunk (Real drunk, not iDoser drunk) when I purchased the dose online. When I placed the headphones on for the dose I knew as A-Bomb, I was reluctant to the dose. I rejected it on a subconscious level. After ten minutes, I decided to give up and forget about iDoser. It was only when I administered a dose that I was familiar with in real life, Cocaine, where I know I was ready to accept the dose. Mindset plays such a critical role with iDoser. Even though I was a skeptic, I wanted the coke grade euphoria so much that my body accepted the dose I thought was cocaine. What I got was something so much better.
For those who fear A-Bomb. Part of the reason why A-Bomb is so effective is because of fear. Nothing is scarier than the thought of an atomic bomb exploding right next to you: where you are powerless to its destruction and counting the last moments of your life. The fear is an integral part of the experience. But let me tell you something. That fear lasted only a moment. I felt my body spiritually break the fear. I spiritually got to have an intimate moment with the people who matter most in my life. I got to look fear in the eye and I didn't flinch. And afterwards, the euphoric feeling of overcoming my fear was better than any cocaine, speedball, weed, crack, LSD, shrooms or legit drug I've ever had. There is no downside. There is no crash. While I woke up frightened at what my mind had just done, I quickly realized that the transcendental experience I had defeated my fear of death. Let me state this clearly:
Because of a successful A-Bomb Administration, I no longer feel powerless to death.
Don't be afraid of any dose on iDoser. It is the safest way to experiment with your spirituality, mindset and feelings. iDoser just accomplished more for me in one dose than years of prescription meds, doctor visits, therapy and hard drugs have in a lifetime. I am one step closer to curing my debilitating anxiety.
TL;DR: A-Bomb Is First Experience In Long Time. Thought I Took Familiar Dose (Cocaine), Thus A-Bomb Administered Very Well. Because Of The Experience, I Overcame My Fear Of Death.